But on to something that makes me smile, taking me out of this world without the thought of MJ or any other reality problems, he called me lastnight (: . As i was tearing up my pillow because of the lost of a wonderful person, my bed started buzzing, i picked up my phone and this number (310)**7-*9** ( lol yall crazy if yall thought i was gon post the number ) and knew exactly who it was and smiled; whipping my tears away. Due to nosey ex's, baby mama's his name will not be stated in this blog, but we shall call him beautiful, that's when i see when he smiles lol! Anywho we talked, and talked, and talked, having me laughing through the whole conversation. I dont know if you guys are aware, but this is a boy who i have had an crush on since the 10th grade. And dont be like "aww alaja la'shae your a simp" because he had one on me too, so HA! I mean we been threw some ruff times together, to the point that i hated him, ( yeah hated the fact that i like him so much ) .. wondering why we never went out ? Because this foo gon lead me on, not telling me that he was talkin to somebody else, ( and we just leave her buff ars out of this, it's not about her at all! >:o) but yeah,i wasnt feeling that at all. Even though he was with this person, from december of 08 till now ,well i think so , i hope not but i be on his mind, and vice versa with me. Every guy i've date or been with doesnt compare to "beautiful" , we always talking, weither its threw a txt, a call, or a IM. ahhh being that we had a wonderful conversation last night i pray and hope that this means we bout to start something good! yessss!

• dont laugh at me ok, i really like this boy. <3